I don’t even know what to say anymore, really. Things just happen. They happen without explanation, without warning. Things that you don’t ever think about. Things that you would never expect in a million years. And then there you are. Just dealing. Wandering through days like a zombie. Not really thinking, not really feeling. Just dealing. And then once reality sets in, it is like someone has opened the floodgates. I don’t know which is worse. Being a zombie, or being a basketcase.