I am fundamentally irresponsible. It is a fact. I am irresponsible with money, because buying things, for some reason, makes me feel better about being irresponsible about the relationships that I keep. Or don’t keep.
I live beyond my means and desperately envy people who have not created a financial rut for themselves. (Granted, I had help in creating my own, but will inevitably not have help in fixing it). I suppose that it is a lesson. I suppose I should suck it up and take steps in a direction, which will benefit me in the long run. I need to stop being a coward and take charge of what I don’t like about my life. Financially, and otherwise.
Relationships with me, tend to be long lasting, but over the past several months, I have become a very “no nonsense” individual. Which, I think, is one of the most responsible moves I have made in a long time. I have become somewhat intolerant of people who do not reciprocate. Reciprocal is the only way to be in any relationship. And when I am in one, I give 110% and I won’t settle for anything less than my match. I have just recently expanded this rule to include friendships.
Until now, I have been quite able to overlook the shortcomings of friends, even when I shouldn’t have. I gave infinite support and unfaltering loyalty to those that I considered to be friends. And now, I have decided, this is unnecessary. I don’t mean this in a cold, uncaring way, but I have recently come to the conclusion that there are very few people who deserve this type of unconditional companionship. Hence, the dismissing of Pinhead among others. Their services, no longer needed, have rendered me free to move about the cabin.
Stuck-in-my-head Song of the Day: "Ordinary People" - John Legend