The thing about me is, I am not good at saying what I mean when I am put on the spot. I don’t always know which words to use and I don’t always make the best use of the ones that I choose. Those of you who know me, know that I sometimes tend to be too blunt and too quick to say things that I don’t mean. Or maybe just say things that I do mean but in the wrong way. For this, I apologize.

That explains the reason for the blog. I am better at this than I am with people in person. I tend to freak out a little when I don’t know what to say. I tend to become too aware of surroundings. I tend to become too susceptible to the outside world to say things clearly. Here, I can be frank and honest and mean what I say. Although, sometimes I have been harsh, I have been true. I have said what I feel and will not apologize for that. Sometimes these feelings are fleeting. Sometimes, they aren’t. When they aren’t, I say so.

Since I started this blog, things in my life have changed infinitely. Several of my closest friends have moved, some have become closer, I have taken on a new profession, a new roommate, a new apartment, new friends, and am now considering a move that could change things more than any of these things have thus far. Well, if I grow the balls to do it, it most definitely will change the course of things. I have given myself a year to think about it. I have given myself a headache thinking about it.

My point? This is a timeline for me. A way to look back on feelings that I have had and record the ones that I will continue to have. A way to document my thoughts, my life. Not for anyone but myself. So, if I have offended, I am genuinely sorry. Just keep in mind that if I have given you the key to my thoughts, you must understand that they are just that, mine. And if you understand that, then you will also understand that again, if I have given you this key, you are one of the important ones.

Stuck-in-my-head Song of the Day: “Footsteps” – Pearl Jam