I don’t really know where to start. I spoke to ZH this morning, while driving to work. I don’t think I had ever been so nervous in my whole life. I don’t think that I had ever felt so…naked.
Everything went well. He told me he didn’t want to ruin our friendship by complicating it in the way that I…who the hell am I kidding? He said nothing of the sort. He said all the things I’d hoped he would and then some. Things that I never could have said myself, even in the soul bearing letter.
I feel relieved but anxious. I feel like a big secret has been exposed and that I can get on with my life. The only question now is, where will that be? Our situation is long and complicated and I know that nothing with us could ever be simple. But I think that is what I like about it. He says that that is what makes it amazing.
Stay tuned…more to come on the ZH saga.
Overall, it was the kind of day that made me giddy and flustered in pretty much every way possible.
I was commended for a job well done.
Someone “just called to say I love you”.
I got invited to lunch by a very cute doctor.
I got several compliments on my appearance.
These things made the day worth having despite my inability to concentrate on the simplest task.
Stuck-in-my-head Song of the Day: "Children in Bloom" - Counting Crows
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